A Model's Life: Behind the Scenes

I am so excited to share these images with you all! You always get to see the finished products of my photos, but here's a little peek at what goes into creating those images! Special thanks to Noah Green for taking these for me!

*Click an Image and it Blows Up!*

It's My Life.

Pretty much sums it up. Figuratively, anyway.

Dedicated to all the men in my life...

The Aviator

My computer is between two floor-to-ceiling windows. I never open the blinds. Mostly because I live my life in the dark hours. Right now though, it's that moment in the morning when the sun is moments from rising. It's dim outside, but the blackness of night has faded away leaving the world with that lovely blue tint. It's like looking through a photo filter. Nothing stirs in my world except for me and the chorus of birds outside that have just begun their morning song.

A few days ago I looked outside and noticed my dog was barking at the ground awkwardly. Just as I opened the door, to my horror, she grabbed the object of her interest in her teeth and flung it across the yard. A bird. It screamed. I screamed. We screamed. I raced over and shooed Violet into the house. I looked down at the frightened little aviator and my heart broke, because I knew...it was going to die. I scooped the little creature up into my hands and carried it out the gate, setting it beneath a tree where my dogs could no longer terrorize it. It saddened me that the bird was probably going to die there in the Texas heat, but I couldn't bear the thought of killing it myself. So I decided that nature would take it's course. I was comfortable with that.

Moments later, my friend Natalie arrives at my house. We chat and look stuff up online for a bit. She tries on some of my clothes for a party. After about an hour, she departs and I jump in the shower to ready myself for the party mentioned above.

I'm feelin' good and lookin' fine when Brooke and Tony arrive to pick me up for a night on the town. As we walk out to my driveway I see the little bird again. Only this time, it's a flattened smear on my driveway. Apparently, Natalie ran over it when she left my house.

I was sad, but also a bit relieved. At least it went quickly and did not have to suffer.

Natalie doesn't know.

Punk Sexy

Two months ago when I decided to get off my ass and take modeling "seriously", I had no idea if anyone would take notice. My worries quickly turned to dust as the offers started pouring in from photographers all over America. I'm not really into running myself all over the map, which is cool because I have gotten the opportunity to work with some respected, world-class photographers right here in Texas!

This past weekend I was lucky enough to be the featured model for the Houston Glamour Club run by kickass photographers BobbyG and Lee of FotoFusion. I had an amazing and educational experience working with the group and am considering participating in future meetups as...a Photographer!

That's right kids. I've picked up a lot of information being in front of the camera and I think I'd like to start seeing what it's like on the other side. Lord knows modeling can't go on forever. But I'm not sad, I'm excited that I may have figured out what I want to be when I grow up!

So, until next time...please enjoy these photos from the shoot.

*click on a photo and it gets all big. Magical, isn't it?*

In My Head at Dawn

Remember John Stamos on Full House? I was a little kid when that show was on, but Uncle Jesse was definitely one of my first crushes. I bring this up because as I was deciding what to wear today, I came across the T-shirt my friend Sky got me for my birthday last year. It's a Jesse and the Rippers shirt. That was Uncle Jesse's band on the show. He sang lead and played guitar until the band broke up and he formed another group in which he played drums and sang. Thank you, Wikipedia.



I opted to wear an Element Skateboards shirt instead of the Jesse & the Rippers shirt, but it got me thinking...



Is anyone else pissed that even though Uncle Jesse wore leather pants and had a totally 80's rock mullet - he and The Rippers played really light -forgive the term- pussy pop? With a name like The Rippers, you'd think they...well...ripped! Sadly, their music was less Whitesnake and more Beach Boys. Sigh. I still love you Jesse Kastopolis.


I'm thinking of taking some time off in July. I find myself overwhelmed with obligations. I haven't been a very good friend lately, and I'm nearly intolderable to be around right now. I have foolishly over commited myself to a lot of projects. It's making me miserable. Today I heard someone say: "If something brings you more unhappiness than happiness - stop doing it."

So I'm putting my foot down. No more people-pleasing. I'm going to have to learn to say no.

But right now I'm saying yes - to sleep. It's a bad sign when you're nodding off at the computer. So Goodnight my Darlings. The sun will be up in less than an hour.

Jean-etically Speaking

Girls will understand this. You know that pair of jeans? The ones that you keep tucked away in hopes that someday you'll fit into them again. Well, today I put mine on - with ease. I haven't been able to wear them since last fall.

Just sharing that because I am proud of myself. It did not come easy. I loathe exercising. I refuse to do it. So instead, I changed my diet. I won't lie to you. It sucks and I would seriously uppercut someone for a slice of chocolate cake right now.

But it was all worth it today when I slipped into those Lucky Brand Jeans and twirled around in front of the mirror. (Topless, of course.) It was also worth it when I posted the last Photo of the Week without any figure help from Photoshop.

And now a message for the guys. I am being told by many of you have not signed up for updates because your girlfriend would get mad at you. I suppose I can respect that. Or I can suggest you do like some of my followers and use a fake name! Let's be sneaky together.

I leave you all now with a photo from a shoot I had last week with the awesome Ron Davis of Reactuate Photography. I had an amazing experience working with him and Makeup Artist Janet Tillsman.

P.S. I do not know how to play the Violin.

Candid, in between shots.

I Shot Myself

Hello My Sugar Plums!

The past few weeks have been a serious whirlwind in RoxyLand. Ever since starting my weblog and joining Model Mayhem the offers have been pouring in. I have photoshoots booked for every weekend in May and June is filling up fast. I'm trying to remember to stay relaxed and not let myself get overwhelmed! Feel free to take me out for a drink, bake me cookies, or just pet my head.

I am just moments away from posting the new Photo of the Week, and I just know you're gonna love it!

Bonus: Today I went out and bought a rad new camera. I decided to experiment with it. I could have taken pretty pictures of flowers, but thought it might be more fun to take my shirt off and photograph myself using the camera's timer. What do you think....?

Now keep in mind, these are not examples of my best photography, but rather me playing around with different exposures and features on my new camera!

The Fairy Shot J.R.

Aren't my friends pretty?

I'm a Woodland Fairy.

Finally asleep.

Hello my Sweets!

I returned today from a fantastical weekend in Dallas, Texas. I'm completely wiped out mentally and physically, but I had so much fun this weekend!

Friday I had the pleasure of working with John of Images in Light Photography in Dallas. We did a very artistic shoot that included lots of wind, nudity and tulle! There was also some satin and chains involved, but you'll get to see the photos soon enough!

That night, I met up at the Hotel with my best friends and we partied our asses off. But not too hard because we had to get up at the ass crack of dawn to get ready for the Scarborough Renaissance Faire. Yes, I am one of those people. The people that talk about and prepare for Ren Fests all year long and then gets dressed to the hilt and spends all day being adored and photographed. Let me put it this way - I rock in the real world, but at Faire - I am a fucking Rock Star.

See my costume in the photo? I handmade that bad boy and I am seriously considering going into business. What do you think?


I slept most of the way on the car ride home today. No easy feat in a Mustang. My entire body aches from posing for photos, dancing around in a costume that probably weighs 20 pounds and saying "Screw my Model diet" by eating tons of delicious Faire food.

I had a 4 hour nap today which has made me no less eager to crawl back in my bed and powersleep for about 12 hours. I leave you with this message:


Thank you so much, those of you who have signed up for updates. Your new job is to tell your friends about this website and get them to sign up too!

I love you all and wish you could smell how sweetly vanilla scented I am right now...

An Overdue Reunion.

My very first photoshoot. circa 2005.

Hello My Darlings,

You can all exhale now because I have finally launched my weblog RoxyVandiver.com! Hooray! It's been a long time coming and I hope to use this site to keep you all updated on my fun and fabulous misadventures.

Yesterday I had an amazing fetish-themed photoshoot with photographer Kenny Haner of Subsociety.net. It was a reunion that was long overdue. You see, Kenny was the first pro photographer I ever modeled for. We stayed in touch over the years and I watched as his work got more and more fantastic. I found myself wondering if Mr. Big Shot Photographer would have the time of day for little ol' me.

It delights me to report that even though Kenny has done brilliant work on several films, magazines and websites, he was totally game when I asked if he wanted to get together for a shoot.

When we met up at the studio, he got out of a nicer car with nicer equipment, but he was still the laid-back, cool-as-hell guy that I remembered. The guy that went with me to my first strip club and told me, "Pick the prettiest girl here." That's how I got my first lapdance.

Bonus: Through Kenny I got to meet fellow Alternative Model Miss Sabrina Sin who graces the cover of this month's Culture Asylum Magazine. She was adorable, petite and friendly. I look forward to working with her in the future.


I cannot wait for you all to see the photos from the shoot. I'll keep you posted.
Right now I'm going to cook some dinner and watch Nick & Nora's Infinite Playlist.

My arms are around you all...